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It's the first week of the media launch, the first few days after the party I threw at the hotel for many of my close friends, family and professionals that helped me along the way. We celebrated my five years of freedom. Yep, it's been five years in the real world.   Social Media accounts have been developed and released, including ​​ YouTube...
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Finally Social

YouTube footage is complete for the week, and Patreon material almost ready. All of the materials are ready for the big reveal to the world, via the Sunday papers. Then, the next day, the Onkaparinga Now newspaper. Am I ready for it? Yes. Am I prepared for what might happen? Never. How can we ever prepare when we know things are going to change dra...
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Beyond Tired

There needs to be a word beyond 'tired' and 'exhausted', but one that denotes satisfied tired or happily exhausted. Yet, still highlights a sense of feeling the extremes of worn out. Launch party has left me feeling just that. During the evening my nerves kept me alert, active and prepared for any problem-solving, only there didn't seem to be a nee...
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That's Tonight?!

It's now hours from the launch party and I'm getting nervous. The powerpoints are complete, music rehearsed and musicians prepared, guest speakers arranged, speeches written, guests RSVP'ed, and a bunch of decorations going into the function rooms. Yes, this is really happening. It really is tonight. I haven't even chosen what to wear and already i...
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You're So Vain

I never thought I'd meet anyone with a personality so unappealing, yet so vain. A person who had left my life, who during after-thought I realised was not intended for me, lacked values, and had overall succumbed to the pitiful excuses others made for them. Yes, this was a powerless person who couldn't pay for my attention. That's what hurt him the...
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Closing In

Sometimes we see life as this novel that never ends. But really, it's the chapters that help us divide where we are in the plot, what we feel about the characters, and what we'd like to happen in the further sections. This is how life has developed for me lately. I'm sitting right on the last page of the previous chapter, about to start the new cha...
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Take A Deep Breath

Ever had to give someone the most unexpected news and found your tongue wrapped into itself? Yep, that's how I felt. Here I was, about to call a journalist who had no idea what I'd been through the last five years, waiting to know why I had called. In my brain it sounded like, "Ijustwantedtotellyouaboutmylifeanditchanged!" The words began from my m...
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Two Weeks To Go

Less than 2 weeks to go. It's amazing how quickly time can burn through when you have so much to do. It's almost like time is spare when we have nothing to do, but sparse when we have everything to do. I think Einstein was incorrect with his analogy of time. Yesterday I met with Onkaparinga Council Environmental sector with their media representati...
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Fear Removed

Fears are within all of us. Sometimes they disappear fast, and other times, they take decades. For me, it was one of my biggest hauntings that had held on for many years. When I was seven, I remember a friend of my neighbours' had a baby. They said I could  hold him. He wriggled, which I wasn't prepared for. He rolled off my lap, his head...
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Medicine Without a Bottle

In society there is a belief that everything has a cure. Take this pill, do this activity or be this type and everything will be okay. Have tough skin and you'll survive. Don't talk about it and you'll get over it. This isn't really the case, is it? One such friend had this issue. Their family was the out of sight, out of mind types. There wasn't a...
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Launching Hope

I grew up a planner. Always planned things to every detail, ready to handle any set-backs. When you have a life in a bubble, you have the luxury of time to do so. However, in the real world, plans are never completely cooked. Sometimes they are completely crazy when we realise the limited time we might have. And sometimes God throws this huge curve...
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Community Centred

Socialising is not as easy as it seems sometimes, with society made up of so many pockets that have their own culture, ways of doing things, and individual things to know about each person and how they communicate. It could take a lifetime to earn these slices of knowledge, or it might never happen. As I venture further away from the bubble and dee...
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Old Patterns, New Inspirations

Sometimes they tell you the Lord is doing his best work, but often it feels like He's on his lunch break. You try and move forward, find a new distraction, only to find yourself stuck in a rut. You try and include new people, new routines, new habits, and new ventures. No, it didn't move anything. We either change, wait to be changed, or never chan...
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Transitional Pull

As humans, we have patterns. We find it hard to change, hard to amend and sometimes when we need to alter our responses most -- during our triggers -- we fall into automatic reactions that just make our situation worse. It's normally when we need to try something new that we fall into these old patterns.  Of late, I've had to determine what my...
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New Options

If life could go only forwards, it would be easier -- but would it be as intentional? That's the question I'm asking myself today as it feels everything I planned six months ago had spun in a different direction. New information, new arrangements and new thoughts. How did I get here!? Where is God sending me next? Six months ago I chose to start un...
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Sudden Friends

Some experiences never get easy, it seems. Mostly the ones that are heart-charged or mentally draining. Sometimes it's the combination of the two. As if one of these segments of self being injured isn't enough! Today was one of those days. I returned to the church ex invited me to, after two weeks of isolation. Normally I avoid ex's as it's too har...
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There is no measurement of a successful lockdown, so I wish to write my own. In my 10 days of isolation I've lost 6.5 kilos, started a new eating plan, avoided junk food (no Uber allowed!), refined friendships and deleted some, planned my new social life, and grieved the relationship I lost on the day that isolation started. I'd say this was a succ...
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All Things Must Come To An End

It's been a long time since I've written, and that's partially because I was off having a normal life, where it didn't feel very eventful. However, fate -- or whatever you believe in -- has a humourous way of changing things quickly, and we are back where we started, only slightly advanced. My job as an SSO ended due to funding, with three of us ha...
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Defining Honour

The word 'honour' appears so many times in the bible, in many contexts. It appears in wedding vows. Yet, this popular word doesn't seem to translate to today's relationships often. Of all the relationships I've been in, only one honoured who I was. He was there for me when my baby (fluffly little dog) died, he was my best friend for years before th...
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I'm back!

After much deliberation, I've decided I'm ready to share my life again. There's been a lot of soul-searching while I've been gone, and now I'm prepared to highlight how far I've progressed based on where I started.  So much has changed!